There's something wrong, I know not what. It is something that festers within me, it is when matters of the heart and the social self overshadow the matters of the future. The future, which should be all one aims for, is currently being clouded. And despite being fully aware of it, and being aware that the cloud will move with elbow grease, it shall not budge. It shall not move away, it shall not relent, it shall not forget. It grows darker, and bigger, with every given day.
And still, full disclosure of the situation is made. Still, nothing is done. Not for a lack of trying, but for a lack of willpower. For a lack of willpower will always drown out one's attempts to fight against the opponent, whatever it may be.
But is it really an opponent? Possibly. If there was such a way that assimilating the cloud into the greater schema, would be possible, then there would be progress without the need for willpower. But such an option dose not seem to show itself. So nothing is left to be done, but to sit, and wait. Despite being fully armed to deal with it. To be able to regain forward momentum.
Nothing happens, and the cloud grows. It grows and it grows. To what end? Nobody knows. One would hope, rain. For after the rain, comes the sun. And thus one can move forwards again.
Stuck. Lost. Confused. Afraid.
Deathly Afraid.
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