I wish.

I wish I wasn't such a miserable and fantastic screw up.
I wish I had just a little (lot) more ability to be empathatetic.
I wish I could read the minds of those I care about.
I wish I was more patient...
I wish I wasn't me.
I wish everyone would hate me.
I wish... I'd be left alone, and chucked aside.
I wish people would treat me like I feel...
I wish... I wish to be alone, forever. To cry a thousand and one times and to forever be miserable. Because that's the fate I deserve. That's the life I've earned. So people, stop evading me, and hit me with the worst that you got, life.
I wish that everyone would stop lying to me, and throw in my face exactly how much of a drealful person I am...
I wish the worst on me, and me alone.
I wish to be able to burden the worries of everyone around me.
I wish to be able to siphon all the pain, misery, and despair those I care about experience.
I wish to be capable of atoning for my "sins"